I have been inspired to start blogging by reading a friend's amazing blog. It seems like a "good idea" and maybe I'll be better at this than keeping my old fashioned journal. Admit however to being nervous - on the one hand yes, I'd like to use this as an online diary (this is the 21st century after all) and therefore it'll contain my musings about life the universe and everything. BUT, ego raises it's ugly head and worries about whether anything I have to say will be of interest to anyone out there. How will ego cope if not!?! Guess there is only one way to find out....
Feel I have to say a little about myself as some way of an introduction. As my profile says, I'm 41 and people could probably accuse me of going through the usual "mid life crises". I'm not sure it is a crises as such, but the last 3 or 4 years have been one of confusion, of coming to terms with who I am and accepting that I'm made up of so many contradictions. Isn't it sad that sometimes it takes almost half a lifetime to feel comfortable enough to explore our true selves?
Anyone who knows me will say I'm a nice person. And, I am although it still sticks in my throat to admit that. Nice girls don't have all the fun you see. But beneath the surface can lurk a mischevious, naughty girl. Who has bouts of depression (although lately the downs aren't so bad) and still has trouble answering interview questions that ask "So, what are your strengths?"
I think that is sufficient for now so, welcome to my confuddled world and don't be surprised if I end up contradicting myself during my blogs. Nothing is straight forward in my world.
2007-09-09 @ 22:28